How can happiness of others make me sumwat, just a little less happy… Actually, its not about them but me. Ive the bestest friends ive had in my life and though we’ve had new lives, im kind of thinkin we’re still connected in such a way, like morning and night.. well.. anyways, they’ve just given me the scariest news of all, literally, i was really taken aback with the latest one, even though ive heard the same news from the other one just two weeks ago… Im happy for them but still, i feel i little bit looney… there’s no friend who wishes a friend’s mishap and truthfully, im happy for them…

My thoughts was, ‘How about me?’… Ive accepted the fact that I might just be alone forever yet, coz of their news.. just got me thinkin hard..’I wanna too… be like them, have someone to wish to  be together with for the rest of my life… and simply be ‘in love’… Now where’s my destiny… Just a few months ago, i prayed for that someone but whenever someone tends to get close, i cringed and stay back.. my mind race more than my heart, telling me to judge and forget whatever i feel.. who would understand when nobody listens, and nobody believes… looks could be deceiving… my past kept shadowing the present and i hate it…  I dont want it anymore.. i hope it’ll dawn with a better and clearer picture of my life… Rainy days, wash away the dust of the past and let me be start anew… 

To u, if you are the one, please send me a sign… Just b u…